God is threw with me. He Doesn't care anymore about me. What do I do now?

Im really mad at God. I wanted to be a nun, I never had a boyfriend and I'm just mad because it seems like he plan hates me. I was thinking about remaining Celibate!?! It's come to the point where i don't feel the same about God. I'm really mad right now because I've been a good person but he doesn't even want to help me a little bit. Im miserable and don't even feel the joy of staying alive. I want to die, what do i do?